Everyone Cries

I remember what you said the day before you left,
You said i had robbed you in a manner quite deft,
You said that there was nothing left in your life worth living,
And that you should have paid attention while attending to your sieving,
You said that you were leaving me the very next aurora,
Also stating that being with me is like opening the box of pandora,
Oh how ever true you were to me that day,
Your plan of leaving me at light surely would make me pay,
And so i sat in fear that night, awating this desparity,
And that is which opened me to the threshold of clarity,
So I let you go the moning here after,
And i let you go with minatory laughter,
And after you were gone, I began to ameliorate,
After all it was you who caused me to deteriorate,
Through all the years your insanity set abode,
Casting down my lunacy through an open road,
Now through the sane, which began to drain,
I knew it should have been I,
To leave you that morning when the sun kissed the sky,
And then I postured at heart in the dark substaing what I've done,
And it was at that moment I went to grab the gun,
And so I sat on my stool, grasping at my silver tool,
Hoping that this was a dream, i sketched my sorrow upon a ream,
And then i felt a little better,
I was able to get over you and write another letter,
This one to a secret lover i have kept the past few years,
Pencil, paper, and six more beers,
And there I lied unconcious, salavating on the tile,
Dreaming of past yore, and how we wound like the Nile,
I awoke with a hangover, and quite a nasty nightmare,
Pistol lying at my feet, knocked from the armchair,
I looked around the room dreading your arrival,
Then I laugh to myself at that thoughts survival,
I pick up the letter without any postponment,
And I intended to send it to make for my attonement,
See for years my relationship had delt in a manner quite sporadic,
So i assumed after months of doging, to hear from me, she'd be estatic,
And as I walked my way to the place of shipping,
Time began to tug my mind, and my mind began ripping,
So I decided not to wait, not to taunt her any longer,
Just the thought of going steady made me feel a little stronger,
And so i showed upon her step beggaging to be forgiven,
And apologized for my ellsusiveness, an effort which i have striven,
And I did not get the reaction i expected,
Instead of open arms, her glare i inspected,
Face now red and slightly dumfouded,
The voice of she who I stared at sounded,
You have come and left as you pleased,
You had my heart and left it diseased,
I know now of this woman you were seeing,
And why after all i knew, why were you fleeing?
Now are you here to say that you will stay and not abandon me?
Or is it now just another repeat of what I've already seen?
And then i glanced down at my feet with a feeling of despair,
And just the thought of abandonment gave me quite a scare,
I said to her, no dear, I'm not leaving you today,
Nor will I leave you when the sky dulls grey,
Nor will i leave you when Im old and frail,
This time I intend to stay till my body is cold and pale,
With this her eyes narrowed and a smile touched her lips,
And she said, we shall see, my then heart did a flip,
And so she invited me into her dwelling,
Rapturously informing me with no yelling,
And after a day all was well,
For me her heart so fell,
And as i began to grow accustom to life with another,
In my sleep i dreamed of someone else and cast thoughts i tried smother,
Apparently I am not a silent sleeper,
For as I awoke, I entered a sleep a little deeper,
For while I was dreaming, for unkown reasons i was screaming,
The name of my dear wife,
That of which was the straw that broke the camels back,
And when I awoke I was bluntly hit and my forehead cracked,
And so i heared garbled crying, I considered the possibillty that i was dying,
And as I passed to eternal slumber,
Heres the words I so blundered,
"So the wheel of fate has hit me so,
And put me out of my grim woe",
And these circumstanced are quite ironic,
And though I've lived its all been so chronic,
So now I lay on the ground,
Passing in and out of dimensions of sound,
I choke back all my tears,
And stare back at all these mirrors,
For my wife my loving dear,
Was not the enemy, nor the fear,
She was the one who sedated my worry,
So it was devsasting to have her victim of my fury,
I regret now what ive done,
And wish I would be forgiven by His only son,
She never deserved it, she didnt deserve to die,
A crime so tragic even the devil may cry,
So now you know the circumstaces of her departure,
For she was the apple and I was the archer,
And we now both suffer the same demise,
And that goes to show you, everyone cries.